We aren't that different

"I have Irish blood." The women told her with pride, smiling at the thought of knowing who her 'kind of people' were but the baby just stared at her in confusion.

"What blood do we have, Dad?" She asked, not even sure what that meant.

Dad looked down at her for a long minute, seeming to be contemplating the universe, not a question of heritage.

"The red and white celled kind baby girl." he finally nodded.

Things You Don't Know About Me

1. I am only quiet at school because I like to hear what you have to say. It has nothing to do with being shy, I just want to listen to you.
2. I think 'living deliberately' was Thoreau's excuse to run away from his life and don't like him for it. Maybe he just wanted to go write in the woods, but there are things that need to be done so get your butt off that mountain and get to work.
3. I cried in that dumb whale movie, Big Miracle. It isn't fair that the baby whale died. That shouldn't ever happen. That song, only the good die young, is rude too. Only the unfortunate know the good if it is true.
4. I only fell for the boy in the first place because he taught me that love wasn't lonely but I love him a lot, and I am really lonely. I wish he was here to remind me that I'm not alone.
5. I mentioned in a post that I was mostly just afraid of ants and everyone who read that thought I was kidding probably but I wasn't. I really am more afraid of ants than most anything else in the world. The kind of paralyzing, make you hyperventilate, can't even think straight kind of fear and I have no good reason of why.
6. I am very paranoid about kidnappers. I am scared on will be in the back seat of my car or hiding by the dumpster behind my work and so I have a lead ball on a 6 inch cord on my keys so I can hit them in the temple and run away and a big scary knife in the door of my car so I can stab them. I'm going to get a gun when I can. So don't try and scare me, especially in the dark, because I will try to kill you first and ask questions later.
7. I started my mission papers today and I am secretly really afraid that the boy won't wait for me when he gets home. Not because I don't think he loves me and wants to marry me, because no one could convince me other wise, but because he isn't very good at being alone and might just marry someone so he doesn't have to be.
8. I don't know what I would do if it weren't for ice cream. I really, really love it. and I love that a friend and I have gone to get some every time that we have ever hung out and with out talking about it switch of taking turns paying for it. I sometimes call him when I have no money and want ice cream. I think he has done the same though so I don't feel too bad about it.
9. I sometimes pretend to like people because I hate it when people don't like me. I would rather be your friend even though I didn't like you at all than not be friends and have you dislike me. I think that makes me petty and rude but I don't think I will ever change.
10. I am so done with high school I almost don't even care about my blog any more and that makes me sad because writing is one of my favorite things in the world to do and I love my blog. I need to get over seniorits before it kills my soul. Also, it is ruining my GPA, but that was a lost cause any way.

What he said

Mike said (11/6/2011 at 1:26 AM):

You helped me tap into the deeper parts of my soul and brought my interests back to writing and happiness back into my life. That is why you are one of my favorite people in the universe.


Mike said (12/28/2011 at 4:52 AM):

Sometimes you say things that make me blush so bad a blind man could tell.

Mike said (5/18/2012 at 10:18 PM):

You are being dumb by not taking better care of yourself and that last chapter was not your best. I don't think you were staying true to your characters and you should go change what Larain said when she found out.


Mike said (8/23/2012 at 3:26 AM):

I am drowning in my life. This is me sending off smoke signals for you, I'm ready to run away to Niagara Falls. Are you still willing to go with me?


Mike said (9/26/2012 at 4:02 PM):

Please don't cry. I know you love him, and I know he loves you because it is impossible to know you and not love you, and I know he is going to make you happy when he gets back. And if he doesn't I'll kill him myself and I will marry you instead. We can raise our kids on Star Trek and coconut shampoo.



 He was never the great love of my life or my best friend. He couldn't have been because he was too much to be either. He was a part of my soul. He was my better half. He was always just . . . him.

Then very last

Mike said (12/1/2012 at 12:44 AM):

Good night love. Sweet Dreams.
To Be Continued . . .






I gave him all of my secrets and all of my soul and all of my hopes and dreams and words. I gave him my tears and my nightmares and my laughter. I gave him my compassion and advice and my support. He gave me everything he could and I gave it all back to him. We competed and we fought. We teamed up and we stood together. And then he disappeared and left me to wonder what I did to not deserve a goodbye.

Ten things to smile about

1. You aren't dead yet.
2. You don't have to work in a coal mine to feed your family.
3. You aren't a woman in the middle east.
4. You aren't a werewolf either.
5. You are almost done with high school.
6. You probably won't be dead tomorrow either.
7. You aren't on the jury of a serial killers trial.
9. You could possibly be an astronaut or the president.
10. You probably won't be an astronaut or the president.

My life is a lonely chair

 I still go to all of your games, and I will always be your only fan.

 I still remember when we used to play all day, and I can't leave that park in my mind.

 I'm still waiting for you to come home, please hurry.

 I still write best on the porch but it isn't the same without you and your music.

I still go to the parties and I still don't quite belong at them.

Say A Lot With A Little

You've Bewitched Me Body And Soul

                    Yours To The Moon And Back

                                        I Never Really Got Over You
 
                                                           I'm Sorry I Took So Long

                                                                  Not Everything Is A Love Story

                                                        Everything Is Going To Be Okay

                                    Don't Cry Because It Is Over

                 All Our Dreams Can Come True 
 
Don't Let Anyone Dull Your Sparkle

                         Don't Worry About What People Say

                                             Part Of Him Was Always Hidden

                                                          To Love Is The Rarest Thing

                                                                     And There Is Nobody As Good                                                       
                                                         Doing What You Love Is Freedom


                                    You Don't Destroy People You Love



Fall In Mutual Weirdness Called Love